Update

So it has been a long time since I updated. K and I dated, broke up...didn't work out. It was an awful situation.

I started working out, N showed me some really helpful exercises.

Then R moves into my babysitter's house and we partied a little. So one thing led to another and well we got intimate. I don't know how I feel about him really, all I know is I desire to pursue a relationship with him. Not like a dating one, more like a friendship one. He has excellent taste in music! Anyhow...that is all for now.

Confusion...

So, L asked K if he and I were together today and he said he thought we were. Well, when I asked him if I could change my facebook status he said to wait until he can talk to me tomorrow. I am sort of worried to what he will say. I like him, and I don't want him decide he doesn't like me.

He's spent the night a few times, though the last two nights he's come over to hang out he's gone home. Which isn't that bad, I like not being afraid of waking someone up when I am getting ready for work. That and I don't want someone to be around when my son is here.

I just like to keep those things separate. I don't know why, well yeah I do. I don't want my son to get really attached to anyone and for him to leave. That and I don't want to parade men in front of him. I don't want that for him. So, I am trying to keep them separate. Though, the other day he came over when my son was awake and for some reason it really bothered me. Even though he gave him a little car toy. I just don't.... sigh. I don't really know exactly why it bothers me so much.

Anyhow, so yeah. We'll see what tomorrow holds for me. I haven't been sticking to my diet that much. Though, I still weigh the same so I haven't been gaining. Tomorrow I work, so hopefully I can resist the fries. (LOL)

Life

So he came over we watched movies all night, and it would have gone somewhere so totally happy had it not been a certain week. Sad...oh well, three more days! haha

I went to visit him at work and he gave me a huge hug and a long kiss. It was nice. I am so happy!

I can't get over it.

Anyhow, I don't know what I think of the banner I made. I might shrink it. Hmmm.... any thoughts?

Tomorrow

I am excited for tomorrow he is going to come over and hang out with me. :) I can't stop smiling. I was so happy today. N my manager was like, "Okay tone it down cheerleader barbie!" haha It was so awesome.

I am happy. Cleaning my house though because I have to have a reinspection. What the f ever. Anyhow. Will write more later.

Happy and Sad

I feel like I have been a terrible mom lately. I have been leaving my son with my mother a lot, and then I work a lot so I have been taking him to daycare. I just hope that he doesn't feel like I am being a terrible mom. I mean, we have been spending time together, but I have been so busy doing everything else that I feel like I never see him.

Good news though, I got K's number today, and he has mine. He hugged me, twice! *Girly Squeal!* I have never been this giddy over a guy. Well, yeah I have. Though, he didn't really like me back. I am just sort of sad because I have liked T for a long long time and I am giving up on that. He doesn't seem interested, I mean three years of me being ready and available for him. Obviously he's not interested.

I need to clean my house for the inspection by Wednesday. My mom will have my son tomorrow after work, so I will get a lot done in that time. I might finally get my grant sometime soon. Which is really really awesome.

Anyhow, I need to get back to work. I will post more later.

I haz a happee!

K likes me! K likes me!!! *Happy Dance* To N (a night manager) said to me today, "I heard you have a crush on someone." I turned tomato shade and was all stuttery and then I was like "Don't tell him." He was like, "He likes you back."

I can fall asleep happy.

Great News!!!

So my father doesn't have to get his leg cut off! I am so excited. It made yesterday that much better. It was a really good day. Though my son behaved really bad!

So there is this guy R who my cousin J tried to set me up with. First off, I hate when people try to set me up. I hate that more than anything. I am single, and for the most part happy with that. He is really obnoxious though because he wants to come over and hang out. I don't like to introduce my friends or the guys I date to my son because I don't like for him to get super attached to people who are going to leave. So anyhow, he is always asking to hang out.

I am a very busy person. I have a balance in my life that I don't want to change right now. I have my friends that are already in my life and I am happy with them. They adore my son, and they are people who I know aren't going to leave. Mainly because they are also my family.

I also have presented another man with my heart, and he hasn't decided if he wants it yet. Though, I can understand the things that are holding him back. He doesn't like kids, and I have one. Everyone says I am foolish to fall for someone like that, but honestly it would be nice to get with a guy who doesn't have kids. A guy who didn't expect me to have his kids.

I am young enough that it should be okay that I don't want a man to come in and ruin the balance of my life. I've had my heart broken enough that I really don't need anymore until I am in a place where I can adequately deal with it.

More later, I must get back to my school work.